Left Over
It’s 5 am in the morning and I still can’t sleep. Fucked up body clock. Overslept almost everyday. Plus, I’m overweight thanks to the holiday fats. Pigging out every night. Who can’t resist? Holiday is simply an excuse to break yourself from dieting and have some of that yummy lechon or whatever your tummy’s craving for.
So the holiday’s over and I should find a new way to slim down without being pushed back by my lazy ass.
I’ve been in love with this boy for 2 years but we still fight over the same mistakes over and over again. But I still love him despite the things we are going through.
So let me begin on how we met, it was in school, I was a sophomore back then and he’s a senior. I first saw him during one of our formdev meetings. Instantly, my eyes smile. He has these cute adorable eyes, obviously tall for my height as he can pass as a basketball player for that time and bald. I have a soft spot for bald guys. He would definitely stand out from the crowd. So there I got another reason why I looked forward for our Thursday meetings. He wasn’t there during introduction. So I didn’t got his name. Good thing he was part of a video they were presenting and he was St. La Salle. Thank God, for the credits and his name was there. I never spoke to him since we didn’t the chance to anyway. I wasn’t the type to get up and have the confidence talk to any of my crushes. I don’t like getting too close since it will lose their mysterious essence. Anyway, one time my friends asked to accompany them to the cr. I was too lazy so i said no. They came back saying i should have come with them as they talked to him. Haha! What a coincidence. In my chair, I was there regretting my decision, wishing I should have come with them but still I’m happy just by looking at him.
One day, I was sick I couldn’t stand up without feeling dizzy. So I didn’t attend my first 2 subjects. I was feeling much better during lunch time and I remembered my programming subject I could not miss any meeting since the teacher gives pop up exercises and I can’t afford to miss any of that. So I forced myself and since it’s a Thursday I might feel better if I could see him. I went to school, then after the programming subject we had another subject right after. We had to watch a movie, I can’t understand what they were saying and I wasn’t feeling well. I excused myself and there I was inside the cubicle vomiting. The class were done and last subject was formdev. I was hoping I would feel better but it didn’t. I asked if I could be sent to the clinic. They were worried so they took me to there. I was hoping he would take me but he didn’t. :(
So we had an outreach on formdev, to help build the houses. Then we made a human chain wherein we had to pass the sand. It was around 3 pm so expect the weather to be hooottt. Then a black car came and there he was. For a second I stopped and stared at him. At first admiration then next was irritation since came with such an entrance. So there we were sweating and I was talking to my friend, then the next thing I know he’s standing near where I can almost touch him. Of course deep inside my heart’s shouting. He helped passed the bucket but still we didn’t get the chance to talk. I never told him that one pogi points he had was that shiny black car and I also never told him that I think about him every time I see the same car model that he had. So I still got the chance to see him once a week but the hype wasn’t there anymore. I saw him as just another crush but i still get the rush whenever I see him. Then the term ends and he wasn’t there on our last meeting. Though he left a letter for the class. During that time they are having their defense, so he’s about to graduate. Then that was it. I thought I was never going see him but 2 months later during my friend’s party at Embassy, surprisingly saw him! Haha! I was hiding from him cause I think it’s a little awkward to talk to him since we didn’t really talk ever. I told my friends about him that he used to be my crush bla bla bla so they were curious and kept on looking. And he found me. My friends were teasing, “omg, he’s coming over! Promise. He’s really coming. Shit Abi ayan na.” So he came over and said hi then he said if I could still remember him, deep inside of course how can I not forget about you. Had a little chat then my friend asked for a picture so we had one. Yey! Though there were 4 of us in the picture but still I got one picture with him right by my side.
